Music Monday is a meme that was created by Drew from The Tattooed Book Geek. You pick a song and/or video and share it on Monday.
Thoughts and other ramblings
I have a bit of love-hate relationship with Linkin Park. Meteora and Hybrid Theory are on my most favorite albums ever list, but most of everything after that… Nope. Strangely, I really liked their latest album, despite all the negativity it received from the fans and the rock community. I listened to Heavy like for days. But then we are not the same.
One of my early memories about Linkin Park is from grade school. There was a summer camp I went to for years with my cousin. We had many friends from there and one of the guys was really into Linkin Park. I think Meteora just came out and he had a CD and I was like, okay, show it to me, I’m curious. I think that was the year when I started to get into rock and roll. The summer after 8th grade. There is a Hungarian rock band whose song aired that summer and you really could not hear it. I’ve listened to that song for a week straight, then asked my other friend to lend me some of their cassettes (yes, it was that long ago). Anyway, during high school I really got into Linkin Park, I even had their poster on my wall. They are one of the bands whose music (even if only just one song) is always on my player no matter what. I can put Meteora up anytime and still love it. In the End has been my ringtone for a few years now. That song has a tendency to pop up on my player when I didn’t anticipate it, but usually it is the song I need at the time.
Today I picked Somewhere I Belong because that’s also one of my top Linkin Park songs. I’ve been listening to LP on Friday, then they came up in a conversation over the weekend and I woke up this morning listening to some more LP. I guess it’s just that kind of day. Somewhere I Belong always resonated with me, even when I had no idea what the lyrics meant. I always wanted to belong somewhere. I wanted to get rid of all the emotions and thoughts that haunted me – mostly about why I was always alone and why nobody loved me. This song has deep emotions, and knowing that Chester battled with depression among other things, these lyrics are pretty understandable. Personally, for me, this is the strongest part:
“I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything ’til I break away from me
I will break away, I’ll find myself today”
You have to get over your own demons to start the healing process, to start the change you want to see in yourself.
Lyrics
[Mike Shinoda (Chester Bennington):]
(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I’d get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Chester Bennington:]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
[Mike Shinoda (Chester Bennington):]
And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I?)
What do I have but negativity
‘Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own
[Chester Bennington:]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything ’til I break away from me
I will break away, I’ll find myself today
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain ’til it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
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