Music Monday: In My Head By Alfie Castley

Music Monday is a meme that was created by Drew from The Tattooed Book Geek. Bjørn and I will pick a song alternatively on each Monday and share our thoughts about them. Timy’s pick this week is In My Head by Alfie Castley.

HOW THE FUCK DID I NEVER PICK AN ALFIE CASTLEY SONG?! *ahem* Excuse the shouting, but like… in the past halfish year since I first I heard Cold, I’ve been obsessed with this guy’s voice. I can’t fucking believe I kept overlooking him. I clearly need to do better – although, to be fair, I skipped quite a few weeks this year with Music Monday, so…

Today I picked In My Head which is his latest release. And one I definitely will use for my WIP’s playlist. His songs tend to hae a darker edge, and it’s especially true for this one. for me it’s about mental illness and pushing others away.

My body’s pretty tired
I can’t remember my last sleep
I don’t know how to smile
And keep forgetting how to breathe
My lungs are filling up
With all the air I’m taking in
When I think I’ve had enough
Is when the pain truly begins

You thought you knew me
You thought you could stop it all
You fell into its trap
I thought I could fix this
But deep down I know I won’t
I’m never coming back

Don’t you know that in my head
It’s a nightmare one I can’t escape
I tell myself that it will be fine
I’m lying to my face
Don’t you know that in my head
There’s a darkness eating me alive
I try to run but I can’t hide
From the ghost that lives in my mind

It started in my chest
And worked its way up to my eyes
That shiver in my breath
From all the scars I’ve tried to hide
I’ve told you all the ways
That you could save yourself from me
‘Cause I’m too far from okay
For you to pull me from the deep

You thought you knew me
You thought you could stop it all
You fell into its trap
I thought I could fix this
But deep down I know I won’t
I’m never coming back